He's all the good that won't come out of me

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I love that little moment whenever we finish eating  and you stretch your legs until they reach mine and you lean into me.

I love that little moment whenever we finish eating 

and you stretch your legs until they reach mine

and you lean into me.

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I am SO FRUSTRATED at you. but at the same time i would drop anything to be in your arms.I say thatthe next time i see you i’m going to lay it all out on the tablei’m going to shout out my millions of feelings and frustrationsi want you to know how i feelbut while you hold mei’m SCREAMING inside. because I simply cannot say what I need to say for fear you might leave me.

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We’d still be together if I didn’t.

We’d still be together if I didn’t.

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If the world as we know were just constrained to the limits of this bed, then you and I would last forever. 

If the world as we know were just constrained to the limits of this bed, then you and I would last forever. 

(Source: hellosteph)

// from hellosteph

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A while ago you gave me a stainless steel zippo lighter. For what reason I cannot remember.  But to this day I still have it. I think it’s a good representation of you in my life.  It’s sitting  at the bottom of a glass jar, filled with other random things. I often forget that it’s there until I see it. There’s no fuel in it anymore, it doesn’t work, but I like the weight of it. I like holding it and feeling that it’s there.  I don’t smoke, I don’t want it to work, I just like the weight of it. 

A while ago you gave me a stainless steel zippo lighter. For what reason I cannot remember. 

But to this day I still have it. I think it’s a good representation of you in my life. 

It’s sitting  at the bottom of a glass jar, filled with other random things. I often forget that it’s there until I see it. There’s no fuel in it anymore, it doesn’t work, but I like the weight of it. I like holding it and feeling that it’s there. 

I don’t smoke, I don’t want it to work, I just like the weight of it. 

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I fell back into another Love

and I don’t care if it might hurt. the flying feels wonderful.

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(via sweetstuffcalledlove)

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// from sweetstuffcalledlove

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at this point i’m at a fork,  where if I follow God’s voice I could potentially end up with the greatest love story I could imagine, one written since the beginning of time, and one that would be the sum of my dreams. I also could just live in pure chaotic happiness, where the unpredictable road can only be written by one hand. But I could stay where I am, no hurt the one that loves me here on earth, and just be safe. The answer should be easy right? Hurt him now? or hurt God forever. Live stably, or in chaotic love. Why is this so hard to do?

at this point i’m at a fork, 

where if I follow God’s voice I could potentially end up with the greatest love story I could imagine, one written since the beginning of time, and one that would be the sum of my dreams.

I also could just live in pure chaotic happiness, where the unpredictable road can only be written by one hand.

But

I could stay where I am, no hurt the one that loves me here on earth, and just be safe.

The answer should be easy right? Hurt him now? or hurt God forever. Live stably, or in chaotic love.

Why is this so hard to do?

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the end. (?)

I spent so much time aching over that boy on this blog

that I failed to see how wonderful the man lying beside me is.

One who would sacrifice so much to be with me,

and the one who if I had left him

would have these feelings that you see on this page about me.

My love,

I’m sorry. Today I give my whole heart to you.

Please don’t break it.

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and i need myself back.

and i need myself back.